Nine days is a big achievement. Well done. What is in your programme now to stay sober? For me, I find it basically revolves about being in a supportive network of other people in recovery. That includes you and everyone else on SR. I also have a sponsor I see regularly and I go to meetings and make contact with new people from meetings when it's appropriate.
I'm sensing you'd really benefit and probably enjoy some face to face support at this challenging time.