Hey Truckinon - I understand how you feel fully. I was sober and was let go from a great job due to ramifications from my drinking. I've never been so much as reprimanded in a job. EVER. The first thing that I wanted to do was drink. ALOT. And I did for a day and a half. That took my anxiety away for that day and a half. But it was two fold after that. This was over a month ago. Things are still not where I want them to be at all. But I believe as Gottalife says- "God doesn't give us more than we can handle." Sometimes I wonder if God knows that I am a 120 lb female with not broad shoulders... LOL. But I FIRMLY believe that as long as I am doing the right thing and bettering myself and mylife that good things will fall back into place. Better things will come in to my life.
Hang in there, come here often it's been my saving grace many days.