werlp, I don't know if ya ever read my story, but if ya did youd know I was diagnosed stage 3 metastatic melanoma 13 months into recovery- back in 2006. I went through a crapload.
and I still have cancer. it is something I will always have and theres a high probability it will kill me.
and I have choices!!!! I can allow it to consume me and make me miserable or I can live in today and make the most of it.
honestly,sleepie, it is YOU that fuels your depression. it is YOU that is looking for ANYTHING to be the problem other than YOU. you've been doing it for a very loooooooonnnnng time.
yes, I feel sorry for you.