Thanks so much for all the responses. I very much appreciate the time taken.
It has also helped me by prompting my replies, allowing me to write thoughts down and therefore making them more real to me.
Something I also wanted to get out of my head, I had coffee with a friend yesterday. I came away exhausted, upset, angry and head spinning. The whole time she spat anger and negativity in my face about some issues in her life right now. Ones she repeats on a regular basis and does nothing to resolve.
I can see I need to remove myself from her company.
I then came home and had AH to deal with and it was harder than it needed to be because of this verbal bashing I had allowed myself to sit through.
No.