You can lean on SR like I did and post here and read as much as you need to on a daily or more than daily basis. Many folks find that's enough
If you find it's not enough (and some find that) you're going to have to revisit what's possible for you to do...because drinking is not a viable option.
To make change, you need to change things in your life. I hope the SR community can help you make those changes
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