It is a good honest post Behappy and I have no children and therefore no advice but am heartened by your story. It is good to hear that your son can talk to you this way and that you are listening and hearing with your heart and a sober mind. A parent who cares is a real gift as opposed to one who provides but is absent. I hope to see more sober posts.
And congrats on your 30 day milestone
You really should feel good about that, keep on.