I'm sorry you feel that way, (and you too Davai).
You know there's no requirement for you to stay that way tho, right, Sleepie?
Whatever happened 30, 40 50 years ago we're not kids anymore - we're adults - but we're still capable of learning.
I learned to value and love myself - took a while but it was far from impossible?
(Gave me a vastly different insight on my fellow human beings too, davai)
D