Doggonecarl - I'm sure I am, and I'm trying to get past it. I'm trying to ease myself forward so I don't panic and give up. Honestly I'm the type of person to be extremely private as it is, so ... I'm just trying to look forward and feel like I have a grasp on how I'm going to handle situations like this. How I'm going to handle my Mom finding out I have a drinking problem when she just buried her brother and how that's going to be a huge burden for her even if by some miracle I can manage to stay sober. But yeah - if I was comfortable with the idea of never drinking again and felt confident I could I wouldn't be so afraid of telling the people in my life.