Originally Posted by
Gottalife 
What you describe, apart from the weight gain, was my normal state when not drinking. It was why the idea of sobriety seemed so unattractive. Sobriety had always been a miserable affair for me.
I discovered that it was because just stopping drinking does not treat alcoholism. As long as I tried to live with untreated alcoholism, it just got worse until I returned to my old soltuion, alcohol. It was only with the aid of a few drinks that I could feel half ok, but that relief turned out to be temporary.
Maybe you have a condition that medication will fix. That wasn't the case for me. The answer could not be found in a different type of bottle. I needed to treat my alcoholism.
This is absolutely right. Suffering from, and trying to treat the symptoms instead of the problem is what I did also. After more than TWO YEARS of dysfunctional sobriety, I returned to AA and a spiritual (but not religious) solution. It is slowly but surely helping me recover my peace of mind and a joyful life.