Alcoholism doesn't even really exist if you want to get technical. When they diagnose you according to the DSM-V, you are either alcohol dependent or an alcohol abuser. That being said maybe you're an alcohol abuser. Or maybe there is more going on with you, because you joined this board back in 2014 and you're still coming back? So it's like one of those things you have to sit down and ask yourself. Do I have a problem with alcohol? And be serious about this answer, because it's not something physical where you can go to the doctor and get an MRI and look forward to the results.