I'm with you here on day one. I woke up at about 1:30 am today with the worst panic attack I think I've ever had in my life after a binge. Shaking like crazy, chest pounding, looking in the mirror with complete shame about what I'm doing to myself,...I'm feeling a bit better now, but I'm going to use that as motivation to stay sober and that hell is something I never want to experience again.