Originally Posted by
Zaec 
I'm bawling my eyes out. I slipped. Life is weird. No words right now. I drank. So sorry guys.
Originally Posted by
Zaec I feel so stupid for blowing it. My plan was to have w glasses of some light wine. We all know how that ended. I feel so dumb. Luckily kids are in bed, hubby is out drinking with a friend. Wish I went to bed sober.
One of my fears which is weird, is making love to him sober.
I'd rather this be my drunk text than anything else. So far I've texted an ex. I'm putting this on here to remember
so you lost a skirmish, not the war
You will learn to do everything sober - I promise - it takes time.
Our minds and bodies are pretty battered by our years of self abuse. We need to be both kind and patient with ourselves.
Your AV will try and convince you that you need to be perfect in everything right now, or that you owe your partner in some way, and making him wait til you get more comfortable is unfair....
It's just nonsense, preying on your fears.
I'm really glad you came right back
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