Thanks Hawkeye and Notimetolose! Today is day 18 and the cravings are better. It didn't really bother me at all last night not to drink, but today is Friday, and I asked my husband to help me through the weekend, I do know that Friday, and Saturday are trigger days for me. Also, there is going to be a singer at the river tomorrow night, I would love to go, but I know that just about everyone there will be drinking. My mind tells me that of course there going to do something like that when I can't go, but I have to tell myself that of course it has nothing to do with me, just a coincedince. I know that I don't need to go, because it's gonna make me want to drink. At least I have an appt with my counsler Monday and can talk about that and the fact that I will be seeing my 16 yr old step daughter for the first time since August when we had a falling out. Kinda apprehensive on how that will go.