Originally Posted by
talldude 
Been nearly 4 months and things are getting better.
In the drinking or drug mode, I overanalyzed decisions I had made, especially regarding relationships, and overanalyzed what I should do, as if life was this gigantic, all-important chess game.
Not been feeling the need to do that as I have more confidence with things. The world is not gonna fall apart if my work day is not exactly perfect, nor is a particular relationship gonna fall apart if I don't do something perfectly.
I'm learning that doing things my way is doing things imperfectly, which is ok because that makes me me. lol
reminds me how i used to micromanage every facet of my life to the point of driving myself totally nuts.
One time early on in my marriage my wife told me Life is not some software program that i can just program and get the outcome i want. I always meticulously micromanaged it all. Instead of just allowing things to be and going with the flow and being happy with wherever that took me.