Thank you Sparklekitty. It's really hard when you got beat within an inch of your life as a little girl by an angry man many times your size... and then all your peers celebrate what they had, ignorant to what you suffered. And mad if you aren't "positive". Especially when you were forced to smile after your beatings so as not to bring your abusers down.
Anyway, no matter the invalidations and abuses in my life, I am still sober. I wonder if there are others like me, with a lifetime of abuse and and then al the ignorance and invalidations that follow you into adulthood and life who got sober despite it all. Society heavily judges those such as I, who had no choice but to go No Contact. It's like, first there as being dismantled as a human being before you were even grown- terrorized by those who were supposed to protect you. And then, the ongoing judgements by those who know nothing about it... forcing you to continue to suffer in silence. No compassion.