Hey Tallguy
Glad you realize the damage alcohol has done. Dig deep and you can do this. Having a motivator like a spouse is great, but remember this is an inside job and you have to do this because YOU absolutely want to be a better, healthier and happier you.
Alcohol seriously lowers our inhibitions. And I believe in late stage alcoholism behavioral changes become incredibly severe....so anything is possible. I absolutely do not resemble my sober self when I'm drinking. I don't even leave the house, but I'm crazy as hell. Doesn't mean I don't own that person's behavior, I do. But that is a complete alter ego. Its terrifying.