Originally Posted by
Acheleus 
...Positives! Almost a year sober and one month out of an unhealthy, abusive relationship. Things could be much worse if I was drinking. Right? 👿😬
Exactly!
Back in 2008 the housing crash I was drowning in debt but I didn`t pick up a drink. Got knocked to the ground. No blame. I didn't do the homework and paid the price.
Sounds like your going through a particularly hard time but let me tell you what someone told back in 2008, "Did you pick up a drink? No? Well, then you`re fine."
I got that because and no matter how I might spin things in my head I can never convince myself that I`m not better off in sobriety than when I was drinking.
Keep your sobriety things will change. Might take a while and a lot of effort but you can`t do the footwork if you`re drinking.
Good luck!