Welcome sdi. A lot of us here can certainly sympathize with you about how alcohol has destroyed our lives and made us make so many foolish and dangerous choices. It's a great way to self medicate so you feel better, until you take a step back and realize it may be the most destructive medicine around.
I'm glad to hear that you're a week sober. Good on ya. Keep hanging out here, it's a wonderful place with non-judgmental, like minded people who want to reclaim their lives.