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Old 06-07-2016, 01:38 AM
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Gottalife
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Insanely drunk is the term used in AA. It certainly was not the real me. I was once going to do something very nasty, involving a weapon, to someone I had never met before and who had done absolutely nothing to harm me. Perfectly nice people. That incident lost me my last friend, it was his neighbours, which in turn lead to me getting help a few months later.

It was precisiely because those kinds of things were so against my nature, so against my values, that I felt bad enough to get help.

" I do not understand my own behaviour. I set out to do the things I want to do and end up doing the things I hate. For though the will to do good is in me, the performance is not".
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