Hi calvin86, nice to see you on here. If you want to get off the sauce go to AA and check it out. Learn some skills and learn what's happening to you. NA is narcotics anonymous for people with drug dependencies. AA is for us boozers.
I was scared s***less going in for the first time but quickly got over it. You'll learn a lot about alcoholism and skills to stay sober. Don't waste time trying to figure it out on your own, it'll hammer you every time. You're young and your health will return quickly if you get sober now. A good life is waiting for you, go get it.