Originally Posted by
ScottFromWI 
It's called addiction Calvin, and it's definitely strange. Doesn't make any sense at all really. That's why the solution is to simply accept it for what it is...and realize that there's no way to "out-think" it. Accepting that you can never pick up the first drink under any circumstances.
Most of us needed help doing that....SR can be a great tool as well as many of the other formal methods. Have you ever tried a structured program like AA/NA or other meeting based recovery?
There is an AA group in town but I'm a very nervous and self conscious person. I'm not sure I could face going to that. NA I have never heard of. What are they all about?