Resurrecting my first post and day 1 on sober recovery.
All of my reasons for getting sober are still valid. Moderating still doesn't work.
I've had countless day 1s since. Skulked away and stopped posting at times when drinking. Having been in both positions, I think the only thing more frustrating than watching someone relapse or disappear is to live it.
I'm on day 2, and I am never drinking again. I don't know how yet, but I'll start by not drinking, i will keep posting and not disappearing.