Id swap you your sober six years for my miserable drunken ones any day mate. I have a Day 1 every other day . Like today is my new Day 1 , although I crack so easily I'm not even sure why I'm bothering anymore. I can't do it alone though. I've told my friends and family I'm giving up so many times and then failed the next day that I'm not even sure they take any notice any more .