Thank you all for your replies!
I don't want to drink again, i never had much control about alcohol and i can't see any positive effect from alcohol, also i forgot to mention that sometimes i used to drink in my lunch at work.
I have another appointment next week, i will talk to my doctor about my OCD, my life is being very difficult with OCD, i don't even work anymore, but i have hope that i will get better.
Thank you all!