Glad to feel ashamed for once
Was up late last night drinking way too much. Was on the phone with my best friend who is also an alcoholic. And I was online with my cousin. I'm so needy when I drink. Every night. I need to talk, chat, text, anything.
My husband woke up and saw me in my messy drunk state. At the time I didn't care. This morning he simply asked, how much last night? I said too much.
I had a little wine and a little vodka left this morning so I dumped it. I feel embarrassed. I feel ashamed. But I'm glad because those are the only feelings that will keep me from drinking tonight. Wish me luck.