Don't beat yourself up, quit drinking!
Why would she resent you for not drinking? Alcoholism is progressive, I'm not calling you an alcoholic! I am, quit while you're ahead..
Spouses play a lot of head games, don't know why but they do! Just quit for the month of June and see how you do, if you struggle you might have an issue, no biggie, life is great with out booze!! Wishing you the best!!