Thanks Scott
I'm working today and am going to fill my evening up with housework and catch up on computer work.
I am forcing myself to think of the two recent scares I had. One involved almost rolling my vehicle on a back road. The other involved throwing up blood. My biggest struggle is around the eating disorder right now. I need to work on getting my specialists set up for my scope and therapy appointments. Right now I'm going to make sure I've got a lot of non a beverages to drink and going to stick to probably a liquid diet until my throat issues settle down and I can see a Dr. I need to focus on getting proper nutrition and not throwing up and work on cutting out smoking.
I had some pretty intense abdominal pains yesterday and almost went to minor emergency with the blood. Today the stomach pains are gone as well as the anxiety. So not drinking save the one drink I sipped on yesterday and getting a good night's rest helped a lot.
Sticking to a regular bed time routine and just focusing on self care when I'm not doing my work.
Unsurprisingly I've found a new fixation. A young man at work and I have been carrying on