These posts gets old
Writing these posts get old real quick. I am not sure if anyone remembers me. I was not that involved on the forum, although I always read it.
I have not hit my low on this round but I can slowly see the damage it is doing to my marriage. My husband told me this morning that I was in a real fowl mood last night. I was drunk ofcourse and just made his evening miserable.
I have been going two nights a week without drinking just to convince myself I don't have a problem... but ofcourse when I do drink it is in excess. Last night I drank a litre of box wine (very classy).
The drinking started when I could not deal with my anxiety. Drinking numbs my mind so I go back to it around 1 week sober.
This is just to say that I am back on here and hopefully today will be my last day 1.
How does one work the 12 steps without attending a meeting? We do not have AA in South Africa but I think I need more then just willpower to win this time.