zjw, life is just hard sometimes. Please know you're not alone , we all go through trials and tribulations. Financially, physically and emotionally.
Living in today seems to help me get through the difficult times. We all get thoughts, but they are just that "thoughts" we don't have to act on them.
I know when that AV rears it's ugly head, it's time to use the tools in my toolbox. Sounds like you did just that by following through with your workout. Maybe you did hurt yourself, but you didn't drink. You're not starting the day feeling worse, you have no regrets.
I don't know about you , but having my self respect back means the world to me. I wake up knowing, I'm following the path, I was meant to. Good or bad days are still better than living in a self inflicted hell.
You did good, be proud of yourself!
Congratulations on almost 5 years!
