Originally Posted by
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.I tried to control everything which led me into a self-induced manic-like state. I was engaging in stupid, compulsive behavior and living out of all of my character defects..
What program are you referring to? If it's AA and the 12-Steps, It appears to me that you also need medical and psychiatric help. Seriously, no one ends up in a manic-like state just because they aren't working a good program.
I urge you to see your doctor ASAP at the very least. AA and the 12-Steps (or any other alcohol recovery program) are not meant to be used as treatment for medical and psychiatric issues. If you're having manic episodes, you should be use seeking medical assistance along with using the 12-Steps.