Originally Posted by
Katie88 
i want to want to recover for myself - not because i am backed into a corner. does that make any sense?
Yes, that makes sense and we hear that ones will not sober up totally for the sake of others.
It truly sounds like your life has become unmanageable due to your drinking. Just think of the wonderful things that might come your way if you stay sober. Believe me the list is long. If you are an alcoholic such as myself it has played out many times that when in a drunken state of mind not much seems to work out for the best. Actually in my case everything and everyone were slowly leaving me. Why not consider this your bottom and start to put your life back together sober? It all takes time but, baby steps in the sober direction leads most to a happy life.
Do you ever feel like you are in a war ?
I say often these days that the war is over -- Thank God.
Good luck,
Bob