Hi Aaron, so glad you found this forum, the people here are tremendously helpful and are here 24/7. While it is not a forgone conclusion, alcoholism and drug abuse could potentially destroy all of your hard work in undergrad and med school. I certainly won't lecture you on the dangers of mixing alcohol and benzo's as I'm sure you are acutely aware. Get a grip on this now, it might just save your life. Oh, and welcome to SR.