I think the issue is that part of me doesn't want to stop -- I feel so sad about the way my life is going and I think what's the point? I don't have much to look forward to anymore....
I love my son -- but I'm losing him -- and the more I run toward him the more upset my husband gets -- because he lives 2 hours away from us and that has me leaving home a few times a week to see my son.
I moved away from my son to be with my new husband because my ex wouldn't allow me to move him out of the county.
My husband says that it's my ex's fault -- but he's a good dad. Not sure it's his fault that I wanted to take my son 2 hours away? I think he was just trying to be a good dad. So I try to drive and see my son a few times a week and now I'm putting a ton of mileage on the cars and my husband says that my "ex is winning because he's taking me away from him and ruining our marriage"