Hi sleeps. A lot of your OP, I could have written at about 9 months sober. I was pretty depressed. I definitely understand.
Meditation helped me. So did finding someone I could talk to about drugs & alcohol. Medically prescribed psychopharmaceuticals help some people, as does therapy. Have you ever seriously tried cognitive behavior therapy?
A person doesn't get happy just because they get sober. Sobriety (for me) just clears the air of some of the toxins, so that a person can see better opportunities to improve their lives.
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sleepie 
I don't even take an advil in the throes of womanly pain and I have endo and fibroids so that's a real fun time, I am too scared to though.
This, I don't understand. I've taken ibuprofen for almost 40 years. In moderation, it's a problem for very few people, and there's no risk of abuse or addiction. Why live with pain that can be managed by an OTC?