Hi Arpeggio, how are you today?
Let's have a sober weekend. I was many years getting here too, on the site for quite awhile but now I am nearly 5 months free of alcohol and benzos. It is really hard but breaking away from the substances can be done.
I reach out here a lot, with the intention of getting and staying sober. So far it is working but I basically had to change my mind to a frame of "The goal is getting and staying sober".