I can relate, and maybe I still am in denial. To most people around me, I am making an extreme decision by deciding to stop drinking, because I am only 24, and all of my friends continue to drink and party. I never drank on the weekdays either or when I had real responsibilities. Only on the weekends, and not even every weekend. But when I drank, I really drank. Don't get me wrong, there were some times when I didn't black out, or was able to have 2 drinks, though I always craved more. But this is what has always confused me-- do I really have a problem then if I didn't drink all the time? I could go months without drinking because I was so busy with school. But progressively, my drinking got worse and worse and I was blacking out every time I did actually drink. So that's bad, right? This is the constant back-and-forth I have in my mind every day. Am I in denial too, then? I've been sober 2 years........