Hi 1NeedHelp,
I know it seems very difficult, but you can do this. Sounds like you are willing to do whatever is necessary to remain sober, and you sound very determined. That was the difference for me this time, I was determined to stay sober, I have a little more than four months right now, and SR has been my biggest support. Log in here if the thought of drinking pops into your head, and there will be lots of members here to talk you through that thought.
I know you can do this, and I promise it is worth it!!!
❤️ Delilah