Your disease wants.....
I was thinking of someone who, after I mentioned tending to want to be alone, said to me, "Your disease wants to get you alone."
A search on the string, 'your disease wants' produced several if not many threads with those words in them.
It's interesting. You don't hear anyone say, 'your fibromyalgia wants....' or 'your celiac sprue wants....'
Perhaps because it's an addiction? Addictions are about wanting/craving. Why not, simply 'your disease wants you to drink'?
But no, apparently this disease of alcoholism is very complex. It works on different levels of our thinking. It's an emotional/behaviorial disease with a spiritual component.
And I, like you, am recovering from a hopeless condition of mind and body. Whatever this disease wants, I know my only hope of rising above it's death grip is the daily maintenance of my spiritual condition. What am I? I am alcoholic. What does my disease want? It wants me dead.