[QUOTE=Sunshine1234;5932963]I feel like we have a lot in common.
Hi there. I'm so sorry for what you've gone through. We do have similarities. I chalked up his behaviours to mental health for years, drugs never crossed my mind. He told me about recreational use in his early twenties, always denying that they were an issue. Sometimes he'd be acting so off that I flat out asked him' are you on something' in jest, still not connecting the dots. Every time he went out drinking he'd go MIA, claiming his phone was dying, I never believed him but he was always adamant.
Of course now I know what was happening. But he was my husband who knew I had a no tolerance policy right? So how could it possibly be drugs.
I think what I'm currently dealing with is the grief cycle. I'm still on a roller coaster of emotions. He's away for 2 weeks and I'm hoping to use this time to gain some clarity. All I know is that so far my anxiety level has dropped significantly...
Thanks for sharing your story with me