It's great to meet you, YoungHyde.
I'm sorry for all that you've been through - but if it results in getting sober, it's worth it. Sometimes we need to be convinced that bad things happen when it gets in our system. At 26 I was still too stubborn to admit I couldn't control the amounts I drank. I went on to put myself in danger many times over the years. I'm glad you're getting on the right track now. You can do it - you'll be saving yourself so much misery.