Scooter, I think we've all experienced that the bad memories fade the further along we get on the journey. At the same time we are making new, happy memories alcohol free.
I imagine this is what tempts many to "try again". On a stricly logical level we recognize that the risk/return ratio is way off. There's no reason to risk who one has become- and fall back into destructive Habbits, in hopes of drinking normally.
Yet, many decisions are made emotionally and there are plenty of posts about people who decided to give alcohol another go-- and are now struggling to regain what they had.
We don't need to define who we were to define who we are.
Great job handling and managing your thoughts