it sounds like by drinking even that little amt your sparked the obssession stoked the alcoholic furnace if you will. Its like its always this little tiny amber or something but you throw a little fuel on it and you gotta try and snuff it out again.
I wish I had a better answer but your thread made me think its odd timing I have almost 5 years and was just now sittin ghere thinking how come I havent relapsed? i mean so many people do how come I havent ? I also dont want to think its impossible because clearly its not.
thanks for your thread. reminds me I"m never safe.