Originally Posted by
soberwolf 
Doing anything at 100mph is rushing and you sound like your doubting yourself
dingdingdingding.
Between this post and Carl's, the point I was formulating has been said.
Charging headlong into anything is really hard on the head. Take a deep breath, slow down, and make peace with steady progress. It is not so immediately gratifying, but it does allow you time to ponder your next move.
Recovery is not just life-changing, it is lifelong (I write that new to recovery myself, Jan 2016 class here) -- but my sense is that as long as I spent drinking, rushing out to seize the trophy of recovery is not only unrealistic, it's quite possibly counterproductive.