I remember many times being absolutely devastated by something he had said or done, cruelty that tore another shred from my already tattered self esteem. But even worse than the actual abuse was the fact that he didn't even remember most of what he'd done. So then I'd get accused of being melodramatic, overreacting and of course everyone's all time favorite, being an "effing crazy bee."
You don't have to live this way anymore. You don't have to keep going back there. You can make the choice to save yourself and move forward. You deserve to be treated with kindness and respect.
I am here for you, no matter what. Just for today you can make the choice to take care of yourself.