Thanks Guys, had had got it into my head and was convinced I had seen my father in law and attacked him, it didn't help when I saw him the day after and all he said was, I need to speak with you in private this week', I was convinced my thoughts we're real, actually creating memories about what I had done. I was convinced I'd attacked him...just spoke to him though and it was about a property offer he had. Nothing to do with when I was black out drunk, I didn't even see him. That's how mad it is for me, making stuff up I did in my head, bad things too. It's almost intolerable... Won't give into the urges to drink again. I DON'T NEED THAT ****....