I think you may want to get honest about whether you want to quit drinking.
It's no fun having one foot in recovery and one in the old drinking lifestyle.
I certainly missed my old drinking pals and the night life when I got sober, but I became willing to sacrifice whatever it took to get and stay sober.
The payback has dwarfed whatever I had to give up to get sober.
The choice is yours, but you need to make a decision.
For me, the answer to my alcoholism dilemma has been God and AA.
I haven't had a drink since the first time I walked into an AA meeting.
As an aside, our sobriety is gauged on the last time we drank, not the first time we tried to get sober.
I suspect you know that, though.
I hope you get and stay sober and stick around.