I have been separated just over two years. Most of that time, I wanted to go back. My ex made it easy. I was never invited back.
I have my own comfortable place and a job I really love.
I have been looking inward and taking a hard look at my family of origin culture and what led me to pick the person I did. Frankly, I have also been whittling down my list of "friends." I am cultivating new friendships with people who are not abusive.
Hang in there and pray for strength to stay away. Going back will only delay the same cycle happening over again.