Thx bemyself, I can very much relate. I'm just so filled with anger and frustration at their antics. I've been hearing it's my fault for too long. The sponsors I've had don't want to hear it either. I've got this family wicked dysfunction (they won't even admit I'm alcoholics and don't want me in AA bc, gasp, I'll get better), financial problems, a health scare, a past I can't forget. That is all alcoholism! You think you put down the alcohol and all that goes away? You quit drinking there's still the alcoholism.
Anyway, I need a sponsor like yours, who's willing to admit my family is ****** up. Here locally, no ones willing to do that. I feel like I'm alone in an enemy foreign country. Anyway, I'm done, thanks for letting me vent, and thanks for the post.