Originally Posted by
zerothehero 
Like the lines between you and the booze were blurred?
Well, maybe. Alcoholism comes in people. Booze was the solution that came in a bottle. Take away the alcohol and I still had the alcoholism. Treat the alcoholism and the alcohol becomes redundant, not needed or wanted.
The alcoholism permeated my behaviour and decision making drunk or sober and lead me into a completely self centred existence, which hurt all the people around me. To recover I needed a complete psychic change, and pat of the work required for that was hearing and understanding how people were hurt and how I could do my part to right my wrongs and bring about some healing.
The op described very well how my ex felt about me and my behaviour. Alcohol didn't hurt her, I did.