Just for clarity, since it's been a while since some of us have seen you, what's your current program and plan? Are you 100% caffeine & alcohol free today? Yesterday? Are you still going to AA and how often if so & do you have a sponsor or want one? Are you in any other "formal" program? Are you in group or individual counseling? What's in your toolbox so far -- what resources do you use when you feel the urge to drink?
I know that sounds like an interrogation but it will help us help you to know how you intend to approach this new phase.
I'm very glad you haven't given up. There are better days in front of you -- you just can't see them yet.
